“Dream as if you’ll live forever. Live as if you’ll die today.” James Dean said that, and I’ve spent many years being inspired by it. For those of you kids too young to know, Dean was a short-lived actor with a long-lasting impact. I quoted him during a public speaking assignment in college, and I think my professor was so impressed I had a fancy quote in my back pocket that she neglected to reflect on the profoundness of it, especially to me during my formative years. I didn’t waste time then, and I still don’t now.
I have big dreams. I like to thing I’ve accomplished a few neat things in my (almost) three decades of existence. If you poke around this site long enough, you’ll find a few of them. Of course, most of the good stuff happened during the latter decade, so I’m inclined to think there are many more good things to come.
But the good stuff doesn’t just happen to you. I’ve made things happen through a lot of hard work, dedication, stubbornness, drive and, above all, passion. I have a passion for life I can’t quite shake. It guides me at my core. It excites me in ways I can’t often describe and ways that make me seem a bit foolish to those who don’t understand.
Yet here I am, passionate and driven, albeit not quite sure in which direction.
What’s the difference between when I quoted Dean and now, aside from 10 years? I’m married, for one. I live in the best city in the world with my husband. We have a dog. She was technically his dog before we met, but now she has clearly and vocally adopted me as her birth mother; we were meant to be. We own a gym (me and my husband, not the dog). Despite playing high school and collegiate tennis, I’m arguably in the best shape of my life right now – and I bet the best is yet to come.
A few things are the same. I’m very hard on myself, and I constantly strive to be the best version of me. I fall short most of the time – as a wife, sister, daughter, friend and athlete. Change is humbling and jarring and wonderful all at once. The past two years have been a formative journey for me; I’ve learned so much about myself and the relationships of those who truly matter to me. One of the biggest lessons in life has been embracing change. Sitting here now, on a silky spring evening in April (2015), I find myself in a similar place mentally that I was in almost a year ago to the day. Sitting here wondering “How did this happen and why” is what led me to my site again. A site I’ve been waiting to “reveal” for some time now. Well, the perfect time is now.
I can feel more on the horizon. I know I’m meant to do more. I’ve known since I could remember that I wanted to be writer when I grew up. I still do, and I am a writer. I once made a career of writing (newspaper reporter, RIP). I’ve written about pretty much everything. But about five years ago I stopped writing for any media outlet and, sadly, I stopped writing diligently for myself. I “retired.” I would eventually find myself incredibly passionate about fitness and health. (If you know the habits of any reporter, you’re probably giving me a digital pat on the back right now.) That’s the short version of how I went from sedentary writer to married woman with a husband, dog and gym. You can read more about that in my book.
I’ve written and run an award-winning blog before it was cool to do so. I’ve posted selfies to Instagram. I had Facebook when you needed a college email to have Facebook account. I still own an original iPod Shuffle and I have an iPhone that autocorrects with sass. Merriam-Webster will always be my dictionary of choice. I will DIE before I use the Oxford comma. I have built things. I have wrecked things. I have spilled milk, cider, wine and protein shakes everywhere, and eaten all the foods in between.
Now, it’s time to get back to me. This site will be an outlet for many things, but I think it will primarily serve as my voice and platform. I know I have more to offer the world than paleo cookies, pictures of a Giant Schnauzer and 15-second videos of my back squats. Although those squats do a booty good.